the ball is in about 6 hours. i still have to get jewelry and a, what the hell are those little handbags called? i just went blank. anyway, one of those. it’s 1:30. i’m hungover, dirty, laying in bed with toilet paper in between my toes waiting for my toenails to dry. this morning i spent 30 minutes googling “how to control your anxiety” in case i have a panic attack when i’m there. solution? none. i did learn this 4 second breathing exercise though that is supposed to keep me from fainting if god really decides he hates me. breathe in for 4 seconds, hold for 4 seconds, exhale for 4 seconds, hold for 4 seconds, repeat. i am banking on that one.
last night was good. saw lots of people i haven’t seen in weeks because i’ve been sick/on hiatus. i feel like people like me a lot more when i don’t hang out every day. and the even bigger plus side is that i don’t get involved in any drama because i’m never there! i love my friends. i’m sorry i’m a granny lately.
sometimes i think of facebook status updates that are funny/clever (i guess that’s “witty”) when i am randomly doing things. is that sad? that i think about facebook updates more than my life’s goals? ok, fine.
life goal #1: have children
okayyy, well i guess that brings me back to facebook status updates. marini saw one of those wish grafitti things that said “i really really want a baby just please please not now”. that’s me in a nutshell. does anyone know who does those? i need to know. i bet i know them!
but yeah, i have more goals in life than to have kids. my students keep that part of me in control. handling fifteen 3 year olds for 9 hours a day 5 days a week is a good reminder of why i don’t want kids right now. ohhhh my god, but i love them so much. my kiddies.
i don’t even know who i’m talking to. i feel like i’m having a conversation with sherry’s voice mailbox. voicemail box? voice…mail? box? i think i’m still drunk.
nails are dry.
