I’m at the airport waiting for my flight. It’s delayed, so I’ll be here for three hours. Thank god for wi-fi. The thought “What if this is a huge mistake?” has been in my head all day. But sitting here, at the airport, at the beginning of a very different kind of lonely three months, I know I’m making the right decision. Last time this happened, it was against my will and I was completely unprepared, but I still grew so much and learned a lot about myself and the things I want. This time I’m choosing to leave and take this time away from all the hype, and I expect to learn even more. I might even be a little proud of myself at the end of this.  I’m sorry for the goodbyes I missed. I know some people are upset with me. But please try to understand why I didn’t want the long drawn out goodbyes. You know I love you, and you don’t need me to give you a hug goodbye to know that. The fact that I can’t even bring myself to do so should prove to you just how much I actually love you. I cannot wait to see my family. Please pray for me that I don’t get sat next to someone who smells. Or snores. Bisou, Maryoceane

I’m at the airport waiting for my flight. It’s delayed, so I’ll be here for three hours. Thank god for wi-fi.

The thought “What if this is a huge mistake?” has been in my head all day. But sitting here, at the airport, at the beginning of a very different kind of lonely three months, I know I’m making the right decision. Last time this happened, it was against my will and I was completely unprepared, but I still grew so much and learned a lot about myself and the things I want. This time I’m choosing to leave and take this time away from all the hype, and I expect to learn even more. I might even be a little proud of myself at the end of this. 

I’m sorry for the goodbyes I missed. I know some people are upset with me. But please try to understand why I didn’t want the long drawn out goodbyes. You know I love you, and you don’t need me to give you a hug goodbye to know that. The fact that I can’t even bring myself to do so should prove to you just how much I actually love you.

I cannot wait to see my family.

Please pray for me that I don’t get sat next to someone who smells. Or snores.

Bisou,

Maryoceane