Maryoceane

I’ve had Sophie since she was a kitten, and brought her here from Rhode Island three years ago. At some point, she decided to be an outdoor cat. I really hated it and worried about her a lot, but eventually I kind of just trusted her to take care of herself. She came around every now and again to hang out for a little bit and then would leave and I wouldn’t see her again for weeks and weeks. After the hurricane, I was really worried something might have happened to her, but a week later she walked up to the porch to let me know she was okay. She always seemed to come around at the weirdest times, on the weirdest days, too. The timing of her infrequent visits just made me love her even more.

Last night, at 2am, as I was picking the rest of my things from my apartment with Justin, GUESS WHO STROLLS IN?…Sophie. I freaked out, started crying and hugged her viciously. But then, I had to leave and close the door to my empty apartment and she just stood in there looking at me. “Sophie, come on, I’m not living here anymore. This isn’t your home anymore!!! You have to go!”, I said to her crying drunkenly. I picked her up, put her outside, gave her my last goodbye hug, and spent the car ride back to Justin’s crying and trying to convince him I wasn’t crazy for being this upset and that she really was just an awesome cat. SHE REALLY WAS. IS.

THIS WAS SUCH A SAD MOMENT. How did she know to come home last night at that very moment? Justin said she probably came to say goodbye. I’ll probably never see her again. I can’t explain to you how much I loved this cat. Yes, it’s just a cat…but she’s special. She had such a funny personality, and has been there with me through so much bullshit in the past three years.

If you guys ever see her around the neighborhood, be good to her! I’m pretty sure someone has been taking care of her when she’s not home because she’s still got a fat ass.

SOPHIE, IF YOU READ THIS, I LOVE YOU AND I’M GOING TO MISS YOU SO MUCH.

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